THE HORRIBLE TRUTH ABOUT THE TREATMENT AGAINST ME
We are beginning to come closer and closer to the truth about the harassments around me, against me and my children. Probably, due to rumors I have heard, I am something specific even though I have thought that i am nothing worth at all.
That is what people have showed me in fact by avoiding to contact me, bullly me, put me outside their friendship area, avoiding to comment my music, my voice and my hard studies within the university. I worked hard during 2005 to reach top marks, they gave me (even though I had got the highest marks before) only middle marks. (G) in Sweden.
I had to leave an assignment 11 times to end it up with starting over from scratch again. This is only 1 thing of all. It has been incredible bills sent to me, harassments and personal bullying, blacklisting here and abroad. How do I want to stay in here, where I am not worth anything at all?
I understand today and I really want to say thanks to the people who have informed me about this. The things you are facing and that you are worried i can understand, that you are frightened for the act of reprisals. But thx anyway – this way I understand all this in a better way, as I have not understood before why they are doing me all this.
The other day I heard that the majorities in here are frightened that I will make the information about how I have been able to survive, in public. How I have passed through all these years mainly on a small small income without having to pay unnecessary charges now and then, found the way in how to seek legal benefits. The answer is simple.
It is called “survival strategy”, when you get left pregnant to your own destiny, get treated as a psycho patient even though you are documented physical sick in back side and neck pain, get blacklisted abroad and in Sweden within the working market.
Oblivously they are afraid from me. So pathetic.
Now I understand why I have been harassed, why we have got brake ins to our apartments, why my dog has been periodically sick in his stomage and throwed up. My suspections that someone have given him something when this burglary happend is no more a fantasy, so therefore I make this in public now. I was so stupid so I believed in that one of my daughters, who did not like the dog so much, had given him some old food or something. This is really horrible! Horrible.
The Dog
The people making us all this probably want to force us to go to the vet, just to show that you always are in need of it. That is not always true, except for the most important. There are preps as people are using as you can use on your dog too and also via good diet reach the same result as if you went to the vet. The periods when i have checked this up together with a group of network people I got to know many years ago, nothing happend to him.
TEST
I used the same diet as usual, used the same behaviour, checked what he did outside all the time. Nothing happend with his stomage, not until I left my house. I hided all possible chemicals in the house and went into town. When I came home I noticed that we had got visitors. Things I had put on the kitchen were changed, I also saw gravel and clay on the floor..The dog acted strange, he was nervous and barked to the livingroom door and reacted angrily when someone walked from the outside door or the livingroom door. After he throwed up a yellow fluid on the floor togethter with a lot of phlegm. He also got a bit aggressive for some hours. He had not acted like this before. Never.
Persecution mania
In the beginning I was afraid of going outside, to leave him alone and soon I got accused to suffer from persecution mania. Oh yeah..Of course. I have travelled alone inside Turkey, I have travelled alone from Sweden to Turlkey so of course I suffer from this…
HOUSEBRAKING
The housebrakings we have had I have some pictures in, that is the proof I have that I am telling the public the truth. It was blood on the wallpapers, soda throwed on the floor taken from our refrigerator, blood daubed on the kitchen doors a s w. This seems to be allowed as the police did not act at all. They declined my reports. We have democracy in Sweden but I think it is an underlying dictatorship. “Do as we say/recommend- otherwise we will harass and blacklist you”. I can not interpret this in another way. Sorry.
They are probably (regarding to what I have heard) afraid of me and what I will make in public. That I would learn all people how to survive this world without living after their concept. For sure, I did never have any thoughts about that until now. It is enough with all rumors about and around me. I am a creative person with high marks and I want to go out of here to survive with my children. That is the truth. I hate to be here just because I am not worth anything.
I HAD NOT THOUGHTS AT ALL
Honnestly, i want to say that i have never ever had any thougts about to make anything in public but they force me to do it. They act bad against me, I do not get the care I need for my neck and backside. They are underlying claiming that i am psychic sick and that some parts of my earlier experiences and life have caused me the pain. Bullshit! I make this in english too just to show how much “psychic sick” I am.
The industry will fall
Of course I understand that the industry will fall if people dont buy things, I understand that the vet industry will fall if all people can see that there are other cheaper methods to use instead of paying thousands of swedish crones for just a bit of treatment. Also, I understand that pain and suffering – if you can pass it through as I have been forced to do – maybe will result in that you can avoid the enforcement officer after visiting the dental care, which also will result in a brake down within this if all people would act in the same way. But, as I said, I have never had a thought about it. I have just tried to survive, until now..
MAJORITY HARASSMENTS?
It is maybe (what do I know?) majorities making me all this, I can not interpret this in another way, especially as we have had strange visits in our apartments where we have not found any burglary marks at all on the doors.
Once, in 2004 I went out with my dog but forgot to bring some dog bags with me so I was back in the apartment in about 1-2 minutes. Then a stranger, a man, came running from our apartments area and looked nervous. Is this normal? Is it reasonable? Here in Sweden “you do not get treated this way”, it is a safe and neutral country….
A reasonable life
Maybe they should strive after giving the Swedish people a reasonable life instead, take care of the Swedish people first, before they give millions of overdriven gifts abroad. They force people to find macabre solutions in the living, they force us to avoid the dental care, the doctors and last but not least the avoiding of the purchasing power! They give us nights of worrying kind in how to survive. Of course, you are using the normal living IF you can afford it. Just to take out one single teeth in here cost me 133 USD (2007-04-22)
ELECTRICITY COMPANY
Recently I contacted my electricity company where I honnestly said that I would not be so careful about our use of this if i could afford it. The way the goverment are treating us it will be less purchasing power everywhere, people are finding solutions in their own problems, borrow, using old things, and we do not get any money in to the state. Many people have to use the social services for benefits and no taxes are coming into the state. It is so obvious to me. And I, an ordinary person who always have paid my bills!
Harassments have to stop
Well, if this harassments does not stop I will probably make all in public, I want a reasonable life where I do not get harassed, where i can be able to show my knowledge and to find a good music job or other job abroad. I do not need people contacting all possible insitutions to warn them about me as I am not dangerous at all. All this sucks, and it is lies. I am prepared to teach all of Sweden how I have survived today just because they are claiming and that they are so suspicious in here. Trust people.
Be sure, my patience is over. I want to be left alone, respected as all others. I want a life with my kids and a reasonable income to live on. Finally find a job based on what problems I actually have, this problem are physical. Not psychological. I can not in words describe how it feels to be treated like this. There are no words for it.
SUMMARY
In my opinion it is like this:
It is allowed to harass, bully, follow,disturb, stress a person in here if the purpose is the right and if the harassments are coming from the right direction….All this just to avoid to admit the tangible torment of the exclution of a creative good human with high marks outside the system, and where no one want to take respons for it.
In the name of justice, I need help to go out of here. I say it again , I have never ever had a thought about making any kind of public notes about how to learn people to survive, to seek benefits a s w. This is just rumors. But, I get angry and dissappointed when I hear such accusements so now I really think about writing a book about it. What kind of rights do they have to claim such lies, I am thinking? Then I can do it, in real, so I at least can get something out of their lies.
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